I signed myself up for a 40 day yoga challenge, it starts Monday, gulp. I was super hesitant to sign up for this challenge. It includes a meeting each week, Yoga 6 days a week, a book to read and a clean eating component. Any of these things alone could be a little overwhelming, all together, it sounds almost impossible.
I had thought to myself, I am not ready. I don’t know what half the yoga poses and terminology even mean. I also thought when will I fit this into my schedule with work and three kids. What is it though that will make me feel ready? What am I waiting for to be ready?
My normal practice is I don’t really like anything new. New always scares me. I like old, normal, routine, it is safe. I like predictability and control and new is neither. If I want to change, if I want everyday going forward to be better than the last then I can’t keep doing the same things. I have to take some leaps of faith, I may succeed, I may fail, but I won’t ever know if I don’t try.
The first part of our reading in preparation for the challenge was about being present. While walking the dog this morning I was thinking about this big challenge. Thinking about the word presence and how I can be more present in my whole life and at that very moment I saw a heart of snow on the ground in a little pile of leaves. I don’t know if I believe in signs or omens but this felt like a little sign saying, you got this.
I am more than a little terrified. I have only ever been to five yoga classes. If I can complete this it will be an amazing accomplishment.